I know that it has been two years since God has taken me home out of mommy's tummy. Its funny mommy when she was a little girl always thought that angels came down from heaven when the sun rays come down and taking those who have passed to heaven with them. On the day of the accident when mommy knew something was wrong she asked God to show her a sign and he did. Mommy looked into the sky and there was the sun with the rays coming down and mommy knew I was no longer here on earth, even though you are sad daddy I want you to know that I am happy. I don't have any pain or have to go through anything you go through, no heartache or anything that comes with living in the world.
I remember every time you came home or talked to mommy cause it always made me happy. Daddy I know that you blame yourself for the lose of me but it was not your fault daddy how were you to know, God wanted me so much and knew that I would be happy. There is no fighting here daddy and everyone's happy cause we are with God everyday. All the children here get to listen to Bible stories and then there are time that my grandparents and great grandparents talk about the family. I get to here about you and Mommy and how you two were as children. I laugh a lot daddy at how you and mommy were. I want you to be happy like I am happy. Smile when you think of me cause I know when I think of you I smile all the time. I can't wait til that day that I finally get to meet you. I will be waiting for you at the Gates to grab your hand and hand and hand go into heaven together. Oh what a joy that will be.
Daddy I see that you cry a lot over me and that you aren't close to mommy like you told me you would be. Why not, daddy? You can't blame mommy or your self for me going to heaven it was my time. Mommy loves you and I know you love her, I can see the way both your eyes twinkle when you see each other. Daddy you should not fear with having babies with mommy. You will have babies and you can't be in your own way. I see you and mommy with a whole bunch of little ones. You daddy have to get over you, let God guide you and you will be happy. I know that I am speaking not like a child but like a grown up but daddy you need to hear this daddy. I am after all mommy's little boy :).
Daddy its time that you stop blaming yourself and be happy. I know mommy makes you happy and you make her happy. Daddy, no more crying Daddy. Cause when you see the sun think of me and all the other little children in heaven we are smiling down from Heaven, sharing some joy with our families.
I know this may make you cry daddy and that is ok.
I want you to remember that when you lay your head to sleep and you feel the faintest of kisses on your cheek that its just me. Saying goodnight and that I love you. I know you will never forget me but its time to move forward with life and not stay in heartache daddy.
I love you from Heaven
Your little Man
Jose Richard Leavitt Ray
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