Gift that keeps on giving!

Its so interesting how God can give you gifts that keep on giving, even when they seem at the time to be hard. There is always a reason for these gifts. I was given a very special gift of being pregnant with a little baby. Unfortunately a year ago yesterday I got into a car accident that caused me to lose my baby. When I realized what had happened I didn't know what to do or even how to feel but to morn the loss of such a precious gift. I know God has a reason for everything even though its hard sometimes for us as we don't know his perfect will. 

After the loss of my baby I remember becoming very depressed but still falling on my knees and praying and asking God to help me deal with this. As, like a lot of people I cant handle this or anything by myself without God's love and help.  I felt a peace from God, and God saying to me he's doing great and he is happy and a smiley little gift and you will see him one day. He is being taken care of don't you worry. I knew that God had my little precious one in his arms and he was holding him and my little one was happy and I new he would never have to be in pain.  

Though this has been a hard year, I know that my little one would want me to keep going on the path of following God with all my heart, body, soul and mind.  Also, to remember that I will see him one day and I would be able to hold him in my arm and just love on him! I know that he knows that I am his mom and that I love him and always will. 

I am so thankful for such a mighty God that even though its hard for me to think and deal with such a loss that He is still right next to me saying Come with me and I will guide you. You will one day see your little one in Heaven! 

Thank you God for such a wonderful gift even if I never got to see him , I know that he is in good hands and that I will see him one day!

I will always love you and miss you J.R.L.R.

 Love Mommy and Daddy

Cant wait til we are together in Heaven and I get to hold you in my arms and see your smiley little face!! 

God had such a special Plan for you little one, and I know he has a Special Plan for your father and I as well.

Though this is a hard time we can always rely on God to be there for us and he is there for us no matter what.

 James1:17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.

"We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise" Blessing Laura Story
 

A time for Change

I have been running away from God for the past year and half due to things and decision that I have made in my own life. I have decided to finally stop running and face my sins. The hard part in every decision we make that is not for God and is for man, is knowing that we have made God sad but we also have to remember that once we come running back to God he is there with his arms open wide,ready for us to run into.

I was reading the Bible and this verse jumped out at me Pr. 26:27 "If a man digs a pit, he will fall int it; if a man rolls a stone, it will roll back on him."

It got me thinking about the verse. I dug a pit and I feel in it. God was always checking on me, looking in the pit saying are you ready and me saying no not yet. God saying OK well I will be here waiting for you. I finally am ready to get out of the pit and let God take full control of my life. To let God walk with me on my path. Not me walking by myself and with Satin there saying OK shes vulnerable now.

I also have been reading the book of Hosea, I don't really ever remember reading the book of Hosea. When we were children I remember it being mentioned. Other then that I don't remember reading it. As I am reading it I keep thinking wow look at how God loved the people even though they were horrible , but he loved them enough to put his foot down to them. Like parents put there foot down with there children and even when its hard and sad to see what happened.

The relationship Hosea had with his wife Gomer. He loved her even thought she was an adulterous. He still loved her with open arms and told her to come back to him and he would take care of her. If you really think about it the relationship Hosea and Gomer had is like the relationship God has with us when we decide we are going to do whatever we want and everything we know is wrong under God.
God is standing there with his arms wide open saying come to me and I will take care of you.

This is a quote I thought was so good " God forgives you, you have to forgive yourself" priest in October baby

Once we go and fall in front of God's holy throne and ask him to forgive us of our sins we have to forgive ourselves. We cannot live in the pain of what we did while in sin, but what God has done by dying on the cross and taking our sins upon him, know we can go to him.

"He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness: by his wounds we are healed." 1 Peter 2:24