Broken Hallelujah

These last 4 years has been a year of tons of hardships that I am coming to grips like after 4 yrs of promises, its finally time to move on without that person. Time to stand on my own two feet and fight for my self and look for Gods wisdom and listen to what he has planned for me and what he wants for my life, (which for someone like me who is stubborn is not always that easy to do).

These last 4 yrs have taught me a lot about myself , what type of people I want in my life, what I will allow people to say and do in my life. I am going to take the bull by the horns finally.


I can barely stand right now.
Everything is crashing down,
And I wonder where You are.

I try to find the words to pray.
I don't always know what to say,
But You're the one that can hear my heart.

Even though I don't know what your plan is,
I know You're making beauty from these ashes. The Afters " Broken Hallelujah"


When my relationship of the past 4 yrs came to a close I  heard this song and cried and cried. I felt like my life was crashing down all around me, I started to learn a lot of things that were going wrong in the relationship.  I felt the betrayal, my heart crushing into a million pieces, the hurt , the pain.

With nothing left to hold onto,
I raise these empty hands to You.
Here's my broken hallelujah.

You know the things that have brought me here.
You know the story of every tear.
‘Cause You've been here from the very start.


I had nothing left, my relationship over due to betrayal and figured out there was no loyalty from the person I thought I new. I remember looking up and asking God to help me figure out before the break up how to get out and when we broke up how to go forward and looking to God to help me.
I remember crying and saying to God I need you now and help me figure things out as I go forward from all of this.

 Even though I don't know what your plan is,
I know You're making beauty from these ashes.

I've seen joy and I've seen pain.
On my knees, I call Your name.
Here's my broken hallelujah.

I know that God will bring Joy from all that I have gone through. I will follow him and figure out life with God's help. I want to be happy and know that my happiness I will gain through God. 

When all is taken away, don't let my heart be changed.
Let me always sing Hallelujah
When I feel afraid, don't let my hope be erased
Let me always sing Hallelujah.
Let me always sing Hallelujah.

I will always sing
I will always sing
Here's my broken hallelujah. 

The Afters 

" Broken Hallelujah"